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I want to cry, but it won’t come out really. I’m doing alright though. A LOT better than last time. Of course I’m always going to feel some sadness, but the happiness will soon overcome the sadness knowing that she is taken care of and I can see her anytime I want to. I’m [...] My days have been pretty lame. I have spent about 200 dollars in clothes, and i stay out until I’m exhausted so I can keep my mind off of things, then just fall asleep. I really haven’t cried much and i feel really bad about that. But it’s like hurting inside. I just think [...] Feel okay. Take it day by day. Cried finally. But, I try to just focus on other things. I feel angry. Still hasn’t kicked in quite yet The way I figured I would feel. Sad and lonely. But it hasn’t kicked in yet. I know it will, though. Blah. Sucky. The only thing is that I was much more prepared and I still stand in my decision. So, I know I haven’t written in a long time. So far, I’ve had Callie here. She’s awesome. She’s so smart. She is doing things that I don’t think some babies do yet. She’s perfect. She sleeps through everything. She behaves amazing in public. BUT It’s still so exhausting. Sometimes I still feel like [...] Last I left off, I was flying to go see Callie. The plan was to leave that Thursday and come back that Sunday. I ended up bringing her back much earlier, 2 days later. Um, I haven’t been able to write much because I have her here with me in Dallas now and I [...] Tomorow I’m going to see Callie. I am so excited. I miss her so much! I have been communication with my uncle lately, and I just want to say that I really could not ask for a better family. Really. I am so fortunate to have been able to grow up around them and [...] First of all, i just wanted to say my main conflict was not feeling at peace with my decision which was my fault. i didnt speak up with what i wanted. my aunt and uncle came to me with everything, the papers, to visit, to be there for the birth, all that because i [...] For adoption, legally, you can’t sign the papers for 48 hours. I don’t think it’s literally 48, though. For example, my baby was born at 6:48 PM December 16th. I don’t think I had to wait until 6:48 PM December 18th. I think it’s just when they release you from the hospital, typically that [...] |
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