the life of ashley salazar

I can honestly say that I feel so much better after making this decision.  Everything is going well and I’m confident that I’m doing the right thing.  I’m also a lot less stressed about it.  Things are going to be okay.  I also finalllly started showing a lot more.  After all this time. It’s [...]

Today I met with an adoption agency called the Gladney Center.  It was basically an introduction about everything they offer, like counseling, etc, and next week im meeting with a case worker to discuss “signatures,” picking the adoptive family, and going on the with adoptive process.  I can’t believe I’m actually going through with [...]

[audio http://smashmaster00.tripod.com/mus12442446/goingaway.mp3] blink 182: going away to college

So, i’ve had some time to let this digest, and i’ve talked with some good adoption agencies, I’ve even seen a good family online that i’m interested in.  I’m finally at peace with my decision. (:

It takes a lot of stress off. Especially with money.  [...]

[audio http://www.fileden.com/files/2008/2/18/1767117/18%20Goodbye%20Baby.mp3] fleetwood mac: goodbye baby

for so long, i have been wanting to keep this baby, but could really think of no reasons why.  i have come to the conclusion, i think its only best to give this baby up for adoption to a family that can love it and provide for it.  [...]

[audio http://www.vandigroup.com/joe/capri.mp3] colbie callait: capri

Tonight I watched sixteen and pregnant, the finale.  It was about this girl, giving her child up for adoption.  I have never cried that hard at anything in my life.  I’m not exaggerating; I literally cried my eyes out. Ha. I felt SO bad for her, but it was [...]

[audio http://home.comcast.net/~avalancheshane/04_Life_Is_Beautiful.mp3] Vega 4: life is beautiful

Pointless post, just need to vent, on the week, i guess:

Watching sixteen and pregnant, I have had to go through almost everything on that so far.  The other day, i went clothes shopping, in the maternity section, because even though i’m still not big at all, [...]

[audio http://change-of-fate.org/10-death_cab_for_cutie-brothers_on_a_hotel_bed-prv.mp3] death cab for cutie: brothers on a hotel bed

reality has hit. i have no earthly idea what I’m going to do.

when I was crying, it was kicking.

&& this is the most emotional thing I have ever had to deal with.

…at least he’s been really nice lately.

he’s right. [...]

Today, I had a check up at my baby doctors office.  I was sitting in the waiting room and all of a sudden this girl walks out with her mother.  She still looks really small, stomach wise, and she’s definitely a year or two younger than me, making her 16 or 17.  I thought [...]

People have been posting the sweetest things to me, and it definitely makes me feel better in this situation.  Thank you whoever you are.

Right now, things have been going okay.  No complications, tests came back all normal and healthy, and my symptoms are definitely better in some places, but definitely worse in others.  [...]

THIS SITE DISTORTS THE IMAGES! I AM NOT THAT “FAT”

This will probably be short, and maybe kind of mean, but this is exactly what I am feeling at the moment:

I am mad about everything.  More sad, which is probalby why I’m crying.  I don’t even know what I feel.  It’s all mixed [...]