the life of ashley salazar

The Perishers – My Heart

i don’t think i am going to be blogging for a little bit.  i have a lot to sort through.

is everybody watching 16 & pregnant?

thank you everyone for all of the inspirational comments. really. one, really, really touched me a lot though.

but, for some others, there is a huge legal battle with no guaranteed outcome.

I’m not going to get into that, though.

Today at work is so crazy.  I can’t take it anymore, sometimes.  There are [...]

What the heck do I do?  I can’t live like this, sometimes.  Breakdowns, and everything.  Maybe I have PPD.  Maybe I should put everything aside and get on government assistance temporarily.  Food stamps, WIC, Medicaid, because I couldn’t do it alone.

Why am I even planning this or realizing this NOW?  It’s way much [...]

Death Cab – Marching Bands of Manhattan

First of all, I want to thank the people with the amazing comments.  I don’t have time to respond to them all, but know that they do touch me and help a lot.  I really appreciate it so much.  I will try my hardest to respond.  So [...]

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I feel like somebody freaking died.

WOAH. Day 14. It’s been two weeks? It’s really an up and down roller coaster. I feel so bipolar. I can’t live without her. I need her here with me. I’ll give up New York. I don’t care.

It’s not like it could happen anyway. New York, probably. Or getting her back. I’m [...]

I’ve pretty much regressed.

i slept back in callie & i’s old room with the heater we used to use and her blanket dumb, i know. i go to bed crying i wake up crying nightmares the only reason I am up right now is because i have to go to work at 4 [...]