Feel okay. Take it day by day. Cried finally. But, I try to just focus on other things.
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Your doing great, this is a long hard process to go through and your extremely strong… I have faith in you, you will pull through this because you made the right decision for your situation! Callie will always love her mama know matter what, and she will be happy to know that you did try and you never gave up on her… I’m proud of you =)
Give yourself time to grieve and feel the loss. Be very easy on yourself now. If you are going to go through with this then understand it’s a huge thing and don’t minimize it.
The getting over this and getting on with your life thing doesn’t exist, healing is possible though, bit by bit, year by year.
Stay close to people who love you and make you feel good about yourself.
I am going away now because I can’t read too much of this stuff. I want to be happy and have a great life. Reading blogs by women going through this is not a healthy choice for me to make so I go now.
Sending you a lot of love and strength and hope that this will be the right decision for you and your daughter. I also hope that you Uncle and Aunt will always do the right thing by you and Callie.
It’s ok to cry. Allow yourself to do it every day if you feel like you need to. But don’t spend the whole day crying. And you are so right to take it day by day and focus on other things. And be sure to find a support system. I found the greatest strength in my friends when I first relinquished.
Hang in there! I just ran across your blog today, and I am so impressed by your ability to think through things and express yourself. I work with teen mothers at my job, and you definitely have got a bright future. And I think Callie does, too. She has a mother who loves her enough to put her own pride and desires aside, and your uncle and aunt sound like wonderful people. I wish more people in your situation had the option that you had. My heart breaks for you in the sense that I have children myself and can’t imagine the sense of separation you’re going through, but I believe in you and know that God can help you find the next path you should take. I appreciate that you chose life early on, and I know you’re happy with that decision also.
Find your strength in God and take your feelings (good, bad, happy, sad, confused…) to Him and let Him sort them out for you. He loves you even more than you love Callie (yes, that’s possible!) and wants the best for you.
Good luck with everything!
Thank you everyone who has been supporting me. I am so grateful and appreciative for the encouragement. I love to wake up, read these, and know everything will be okay. Thank every single one of you
Sometimes crying (“getting it out”) helps a lot. When I have a hard time I take a shower and cry, sometimes you just need to. Hope things get better for you.