I might have to get another year for my blog, so if it “disappears” i will take care of it. Someone notified me that there were only ads on the page, and couldn’t find my blog. Thanks 
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you need to stop feeling bad for yourself stop your bullshit your daughter needs you none can love your daughter more then you will you should have kept her and you say you werent happy before you had her well thats hard to belive you were having fun thats how you got pregnant you need to grow up im 17 and i have a baby and now you need to be strong for your baby not feel bad for yourself
Ashley,
I think you did a very selfless thing when choosing to give Callie to your Aunt and Uncle, but it’s time to move on. You aren’t helping yourself by continuing to write about how horrible you feel and how bad of a person you think you are. FYI, You aren’t a bad person.
If you’re still feeling terrible about your decision then get a journal and write in that. I’ve heard you complain about people stalking you and going on and on about Callie. What do you expect, when you go on MTV, give your baby up for adoption, take her back to raise yourself and then realize you can’t do it and then give her back AGAIN; on top of which you made a PUBLIC WEBSITE for your blog so that EVERYBODY (yes, everybody) can read it. That is ludicrous and people are going to have something to say about that. Do you expect everybody to have the same opinion that you or that most people do? Do you want reassurance that you did the right thing? YOU DID THE RIGHT THING. This is why teenagers shouldn’t have children. Most of the decisions we make right now are not going to be the decisions we would have made later on in our lives. And I can tell that you didn’t want adoption, I think anybody can tell that. But the way I see you with Callie on this video you are looking like you are the prominent parent. It’s very important in an adoption when a child is growing up, especially in the first ten years, to make it VERY CLEAR that you are the BIRTH mother. If when you visit her, you act like you’re her mother, it’s going to confuse her and she is going to wonder why she has two mommies and one daddy. I know it sounds hard but there are times when you have to back off. Yes I am aware that she is your child but you surrendered her to adoption. If you wanted to care for her then you should have kept her and figured something out. I’m sorry to sound so harsh. I have been through an adoption, it was the hardest thing I ever have done, so I DO know how you feel.
Now I’m not saying that people have any right to come on here and harass you and tell you you’re a horrible person (and I hope you don’t think that I was trying to say that) but the fact is that people will continue to do so because some people just think it’s okay to feed off of other people’s pain. It’s sick but it’s true.
So I guess I didn’t really have to write all this out and I could have just summed it up simply and said, bottom line, just shut this silly little blog down, get on with your life, go to school, be as much part of Callie’s life as you can (within reason of course) and start enjoying yourself again. You are wasting your life away right now and it’s not healthy.
Good luck <3